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  Contaminated

  Em Garner

  After the Contamination—an epidemic caused by the super-trendy diet drink SlimPro that turned ordinary citizens into shambling creatures unable to control their violent impulses—the government rounded up the “Connies” to protect the remaining population. But now, two years later, the government’s started sending the rehabilitated back home, complete with shock collars that will either stop the Connies from committing violent acts or kill them before they do any further harm.

  Since her parents were taken in the roundup, Velvet Ellis has struggled to care for her ten-year-old sister and maintain a sense of normalcy, despite brutal government rations and curfews. She goes to the “Kennels” every day searching for her parents, and when she finds her mother, she’s eager to bring her home. Maybe, eventually, they’ll be able to get back to the way things were before. But even though it seems that her mother is getting better (something that the government says is impossible), there will be no happy transition. Anti-Connie sentiment is high, and rumor has it that an even worse wave of the Contamination is imminent. And then the government declares that the Connies will be rounded up and neutralized, once and for all.

  Sacrificing everything—her boyfriend, her home, and her job—Velvet will do anything to protect her mother. Velvet has to get the collar off her mother before the military comes to take her away. Even if it means risking all of their lives.

  Gritty and grabbing, Velvet is a harrowing, emotionally charged dystopic venture into YA from a well-known and respected writer of women’s fiction.

  Releases simultaneously in electronic book format (ISBN 978-1-60684-355-0)

  Review

  “Alarmingly realistic and absolutely unputdownable, Contaminated will leave you reeling.”

  —Jennifer L. Armentrout, USA Today best-selling Author

  “Confession: This book had me crying in public. It’s riveting, relentless—and best of all, real. Contaminated is the most human, heartbreaking dystopian I’ve ever read.”

  —Jeri Smith-Ready, award-winning author of the Shade trilogy

  “Echoing the reality millions of young adults worldwide face daily, this dystopia speaks to a wide range of readers, including reluctant ones.”

  —Kirkus

  Em Garner

  CONTAMINATED

  Dedicated to Unagh and Ronan,

  who love zombies as much as I do.

  Remember, kids, you gotta be

  fast enough to outrun ’em!

  ONE

  THEY KEEP THEM IN CAGES. THE UNCLAIMED. Long rows of narrow, filthy cages lined up along dark corridors lit by bare, hanging bulbs. The corridors stink like disinfectant. It’s a harsh, burning smell that hurts the inside of my nose, but it’s better than the reek that wafts up from underneath the odor of cleanser. That smell’s something raw and meaty and moist, something sick. Like dirty wounds. Blood and other things.

  “These are our new girls.” Jean, the kennel worker who brought me in here, pauses in the doorway to another long corridor, this one with the added luxury of dripping water and cracks in the cement floor. Something scuttles into the shadows, something I don’t want to see. Her keys jingle against her hip as she turns to look at me. “You know what you’re looking for, right, hon?”

  Of course I know. But just in case, I hold up the picture I pulled from an old album. It’s worn and creased from being in my pocket. Warm from my body. I look a lot different in that picture. I was only ten then, and I’ll soon be eighteen. But that’s okay. We all look different now.

  “Aww, she’s pretty. Real pretty.” Jean’s eyes say what her mouth keeps a secret.

  She won’t be pretty anymore even if I do find her. Not after so much time out there on her own, on the streets. Not after being kept for more than even a single day in this place or one like it, a chance that’s grown more and more unlikely even though I search both of the town’s kennels as often as I can. Every other day, if I can manage it. Even when I don’t think I’ll be able to stand it one more time. Even when I can’t decide if I hope someone found her and brought her in, or if I wish she’d never be found.

  “What was her name, again, hon?”

  “Her name is Malinda.” I make sure to emphasize that. “It still is Malinda.”

  At the force of my reply, Jean gives me a doubtful look, like maybe I should be the one in the cage.

  “Well, we don’t have any that came in with that name,” she says, then adds with a little too much sparkle in her voice, “but that’s a real pretty name. Real pretty.”

  I stare down the long, long rows of cages. I can’t smell them anymore, which is a disgusting blessing because it means I’ve been here long enough to get used to it. I never want to be here long enough to get used to anything in this place.

  “Of course… she could still be here,” Jean says. “I mean… it’s not like they can tell us their names. Unless they have identification or something… but most of them don’t.”

  I know this already, the way I know her name is Jean. She introduced herself to me when I came into the kennel the first time, to fill out my paperwork. She has a son who helps out here at the kennel, and a husband named Earl, who can’t work. She’s never said why. It’s not my business, and really, I don’t care. I’m glad she’s never told me, so I don’t have to nod politely and pretend it matters.

  “So we give them names,” she says, too brightly, like she’s talking to a toddler. I think it’s my face. People tell me I look younger. “Real pretty ones. And we do our best for them until their people come for them.”

  That’s nice. Giving them names. At the other kennel, they call them all Connie.

  “If their people come for them,” I say aloud now, because we’ve started down the corridor, between the cages, far enough down the center to keep our heels from any danger of being nipped or scratched.

  “If their people come for them,” Jean agrees and falls silent for a moment. When she speaks again, her voice reverent, she says, “And if they don’t, we do our best for them. Until their time’s up.”

  Nobody really talks about what happens to the ones who aren’t claimed before the cutoff date, but everyone knows the truth about places like this, these buildings full of cages. There’s not enough room for all of them, not with more unclaimed coming in all the time. The ones nobody can identify, or nobody wants.

  But I want her so much, it’s like a pain burning deep in my gut every time I think about how I might already be too late. She’s been missing a long time, well past the cutoff date for shelter here. I know the kennels do their best to hold the unclaimed for as long as they can—nobody admits to wanting to get rid of them, even if there are a lot of people who think extermination is better than reclamation.

  “Here, this one we call Sally. She just looks like a Sally, doesn’t she? What a pretty one.” Jean sounds hopeful, as though the picture I showed her could possibly compare to what I see before me in the cage.

  I look for a long time, needing to be sure, before I shake my head. “That’s not her.”

  We walk the corridor, again looking in every cage. None of them has what I’m looking for, and by the time we reach the end, I’m already counting the minutes until I can get out of here. I’m relieved. I’m disappointed. I’m anxious and tired and stressed; I have to get home to make sure Opal has her dinner, and I’d like to have some time to watch some terrible television after I’ve finished my homework. I might even like to try to catch a conversation with Tony before I go to bed. He complains I don’t have enough time for him, and even though I think he should understand, I know he’s right. And I know that although I don’t need him, I want him. I don’t want him to find someone else, a girl who will give him all her attention, a girl who
doesn’t have so much else to do.

  Jean stops, finally, at the end of the row. “We’ve had this girl for almost a month. She was in quarantine for the past few weeks, getting taken care of. Had a few nasty infections in her gums and one leg. The doc said it looked like she’d gotten hung up on some barbed wire somewhere along the way. But he fixed her up.”

  Jean sounds extra hopeful this time, and I can’t help the surge of anticipation swirling inside me as I move closer, trying to see into the cage’s shadows. Something moves back there. This shadow shifts on the nest of soft blankets they’ve given it, and then it moves toward the bars of the cage.

  “Hey, pretty girl,” Jean says, and tosses her a small scrap of some kind of biscuit that smells good over the caustic burn of the disinfectant. “Here, Peaches.”

  “That’s what you call her? Peaches?”

  Jean gives me that startled look again, like I’ve said something strange. “It’s a pretty name.”

  “But… it’s a dog’s name.”

  Jean puts her hand in the pocket she pulled the treat from and says nothing. I look at the cage and the creature inside. She’s holding the biscuit in both hands, holding it to her mouth and shoving it inside so the crumbs spray out and slobber drips down her chin onto the dank, dirty floor.

  “It’s a dog’s name,” I say again.

  My voice breaks. I want to be sick on the floor. I clutch my elbows, pressing my crossed arms to my belly to keep myself from puking. I stare at what they call Peaches, and my heart breaks worse than my voice ever could.

  “It’s not a name for a person,” I whisper.

  “She’s not the one you’re looking for, is she?”

  “No.” I shake my head. I don’t want to cry. We’d both be embarrassed. Based on what I know about her, I think Jean might even try to mother me—and I’d rather die than have her try to do that.

  “I’m sorry, hon.”

  The worst part of it, I know she is. Jean’s a nice lady who does her best for the unclaimed, given what she has to work with. Dirty cages and beds of rags. Dog biscuits to feed them. I know she’s sorry about this, but she can’t do anything about it. Before she can touch me, I’m heading down the corridor toward the door. I need to get out of here. Fast.

  Hands reach through the bars. They moan, the unclaimed. They babble. They can’t really talk, most of them, maybe just a word here and there. Nothing that makes sense. Their fingernails, ragged and dirty, scratch at the cement with a sound worse than if they were dragging them across chalkboards. They clutch and grasp at me, and I know it’s my own agitation that’s riling them up. The ones in here have all been neutralized. They’re not dangerous. They might grab and clutch and groan, but even if they get ahold of me, they’re not going to rip open my flesh with their teeth and eat my organs. They’re not going to kill me.

  And then at the end, just before I duck through the doorway, one of them catches me. I’ve dodged too far out of the way of a pale, curling hand on one side, and the woman in the cage across from it snags my shoelace. I don’t fall, but I do stumble. I grab the metal bar to keep myself from hitting the concrete, and the metal rings out with a flat, hollow sound. She shudders at the sound and looks up at me, slack mouth and dull eyes. Matted hair falls down her shoulders and over her back.

  They give them clothes to wear, though most of them would gladly go naked and not even know it. But this one wears a flowered blouse, many buttons missing and not replaced. The flowers are daises, yellow and white, with green stems. It’s an ugly shirt made more disgusting by the dirt and stains on it, and it shows off how thin her arms are.

  I can see the collar from here. It’s black, about two inches wide, and circles her neck without any visible end. Two of the three tiny bulbs at her throat are dark. The other shines faintly, steadily green, like the point of light on a battery charger for a cell phone or camera.

  Her fingertips, raw and sore-looking, have tangled in my lace. Either she’s not trying to get them out, or she can’t. She tugs. My foot moves. I look down at her, the world swimming as my eyes burn with tears. I’d walked past this cage before, two days ago. Just now I’d passed it twice. I’d looked at this woman and not known her.

  But I do now.

  My fingers slip on the metal bars as my knees become jelly and fold. The cold, damp concrete bites my knees through my jeans. I gently take her hand from my shoelace, and her fingers grip mine so tight, they leave white marks on my skin. I hold her hand, and I try very, very hard not to be afraid.

  “Is this the one, hon?” Jean asks from behind me. “Did you find her?”

  “Yes,” I say, without looking at her. “Yes. This is my mother.”

  TWO

  I CAN’T BRING HER HOME RIGHT AWAY. THEY have to take our DNA samples. A swipe with a sponge inside both our cheeks, and it’s done. I wash away the taste of the sponge with water from a bottle Jean gives me. It has the government seal on it that’s supposed to prove it’s clean, but I guess at this point it doesn’t really matter anymore. I don’t think my mom notices or cares.

  They have to take the DNA to prove this is my mom. That I’m not some random stranger coming off the street to take her home. I don’t want to think about why anyone would want to claim one of the Contaminated who doesn’t belong to them—it’s hard enough to take the responsibility for a loved one, but a stranger? I shudder, wishing I were still too young to know the reasons why anyone would do something like that.

  “The tests usually come back pretty fast.” Jean is smiling. Happy. Maybe just to be rid of one of her charges, maybe she’s really glad for me, I don’t know. “By next week everything should be cleared, and you can take her home.”

  I’m not smiling. I hand her the cash for the test, a crumpled pair of twenties that are all I have to last until payday, which isn’t until next week. It wouldn’t be the first time Opal and I have lived on ramen noodles for a few days. Or weeks. But I’m glad the assistance check is due on Friday.

  “She’ll be okay until then, right?” The words drop, hard like stones, from my mouth. “Nothing’s going to happen to her? She won’t be returned before then? I mean, you have the paperwork all settled and stuff.”

  I’ve heard rumors that even though some of the Contaminated have been claimed, screwups with the files returned them to the labs before their loved ones could take them home. Or worse, the person claiming them wasn’t a blood relative, which meant the process of proving the Contaminated’s identity took so much longer that they got sent back before it could be finished.

  It was supposed to be a good thing, releasing the Contaminated from the labs and letting them go home to their families. When the government announced the claiming procedures for the Return Initiative, they made it sound like it would be so easy. So perfect. But just like most everything else that’s happened since the Contamination, the process is complicated and slow, and it doesn’t work the way it’s supposed to. People haven’t been stepping forward to claim their lost family members. People who do want them can’t find them. The posters and the pamphlets and the special announcements on the news haven’t done much to help, either. There are thousands of Contaminated being released into what were supposed to be called “interim shelters” but what everyone calls kennels, and nobody’s claiming them. Where else can they go but back to the laboratories that had already kept them for months? And what happens to them there, after that, when it’s clear nobody wants them… well, that’s something else nobody talks about.

  But we all know.

  I can’t imagine it, finding my mom after all these months, only to lose her for good. But then… at least I’d know what had happened. At least I’d know she was dead, not just missing. But I shake myself out of that thought. She’s not dead, and she’s not missing anymore. She’s still Contaminated, though. She always will be.

  But she’ll also always be my mom.

  “She’ll be fine,” Jean says gently as she takes the folder of paperwork out of the OU
T bin on top of her desk. “I know what you’ve heard about some of those other shelters, but… I care about my girls. I do. I’ll make sure she’s all right. Keep her fed and clean as best we can. Nothing’s going to happen to her while I’m here. I won’t let them take her back before you can get her, I promise.”

  I want to cry again at Jean’s kindness. I want to let her hug and rock me, shush-shushing while I press my face into the front of her shirt. She usually smells like laundry detergent, and I’d like to clean my nostrils of the sickly stink. I don’t cry, though, even if I’m sure Jean is half hoping I will.

  “My son Dillon’s about your age,” she says suddenly. She’s never given him a name before. Of course she knows my age because I had to write it down when I filled out all the papers, along with everything else about my life.

  I pause, her pen still in my hand as I sign the last form. I look up. “Huh?”

  “What school do you go to?”

  “Cedar Crest.”

  She smiles. “He went to Annville-Cleona. He graduated last year. Dillon Miller?”

  I don’t know her son. I shrug, put the pen down. I’m not going to graduate, not on time, anyway. Not unless something changes, and with the way the world’s going, that doesn’t seem likely.

  “Sorry,” I say. “I don’t know him.”

  “You’re a nice girl, Velvet.”

  This startles me into looking at her again. “Huh?”

  Jean shrugs. She looks a little sad. “That’s all I’m saying. You’re a nice girl. A good girl. Doing what you’re doing.”

  My throat burns the way my eyes did a couple of minutes ago. I swallow hard, but it doesn’t get better. Jean knows everything about me because I had to write it all down on those papers, because I’ve been coming here for months, since the first day they announced the Return Initiative, and because it’s her job to know it. But she doesn’t have to pity me; that’s not part of her job.